Better

I feel so much better today. Alhamdulillah.

I'm catching up with work baby steps. I'm still learning how to balance my work. Hopefully I can become a fast learner because works dont wait baby!

Those pics were taken during our so called honeymoon. Well it was supposed to be our honeymoon but I fell sick. Bummer! Reason?

I binge-eating seafood on the night of our arrival and suffered food poisoning for the rest of the vacation.woooo... I'm a huge fan of crabs but if some body show me a plate of crab right now am gonna barf. I suffered diarrhea and vomit which had successfully ruined the whole honeymoon period.


And because of that, B wants to have another honeymoon but we have yet to choose the place. huraaahhhhh! 


I'm thinking Singapore right now. or Perhentian. B wants to go to Korea. I dont think so.haha 

Take me home

Last week was too overwhelming for me.

I got a Form 2 class for English subject and they took away my Civic class.

Taking over another class during midyear is suicidal.I dont know the students and I have syllabus to catch up. I've entered the class and I'm tired starting all over again - getting to know the kids, the attitudes, being emo. There's this one Indian boy in the class. he loves to say 'fuck' and look at me. I asked the previous teacher and she told me that boy is testing me. It's either fuck or shit. and he will shout those words in the class when I was teaching. damn boy!

Apart from that drama, i'm chasing the students from the 2 civic classes to hand in their folio. I'm tired. The due date was 2 weeks ago. Next week I'll fill in the borang salah laku. Tired of being too nice.

Then come other events/meetings/letters..

I got tricked into doing somebody else's job too and lost my Saturday. They whole time I was in school I felt rage inside of me. Kerja tak ikhlas. I just couldnt talk myself into doing it. I was forced.

And tonight I just found out I lost my thumb drive which basically stores my soul. Official letters, meeting minute, contact no, proposal, moduls Oh just kill me now.

With all the mumbo jumbos, can somebody take me to B? I miss him. I need to go home. I need to see him. I need him to hug me and say everything will be alright. My pendrive is temporarily hiding from me. The students will hand in their folio next week. Anyone? please...

My Saturday

I'm working right now. From 8am to 5pm on Saturday. Tho i think i already have too much on my plate, i am still the lucky broom. Alwaysssss something for me to sweep. Nehmind Nurul. It's a learning process. Life learning. You'll be learning your whole life. What the fish am i rambling here? @.@

I miss my hubby. He's flying home to celebrate Ramadhan in Melaka. Excited? Hell yeahh!! Been thinking many many types of food that i will cook. Tho i'm not good at it, it's something i look forward to: cooking for my man.

Lapar...i didnt have breakfast this morning. Kroeeoookkkkkkkk!!

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Learning Process

I'm getting crazier because of those.hehe my school is organising workshops for STPM candidates and inviting all the school around Melaka to join. I've been making calls, faxing letters, drafting, meeting and screaming.muehehehe but I love it. I get to deal with many Form 6 GPKs around Melaka. and just now an officer from JPM called asking about the programme. I wasnt sure but I goreng-ed and I think I've answered well.muehehe the questions include why we have on certain dates or times. what's the purpose bla bla bla. 

My sister is spending her semester break at home. I'm blessed to have sisters who cook, bake really really really well. One of them could beat masterchef contestants and the other sister can open up a bakery. Me? I'll be the regular customer.muahahahaha

Finding my roots

I feel lost lately. Ok not lately but since a month ago. I dont know why I wake up everyday, get ready and find myself driving to school at wee hour.

Every time I entered a class, I would search for the answer on the students' face. The answer on what to teach that day. Days passed and I find it's getting hard for me to focus.

One could easily see my mobility in school. I am a secretary for one workshop organised by the school so you could see me walking in a very fast pace up and down - the busiest woman ever in the school...yea as if...

I think I have a problem. I'm still finding the balance to prioritize my works. Juggling between classes, lesson planning, other tasks.

Today the book supplier came and he helped to lift one boulder off my shoulder. For 4 days, I got RM3K cash under my care. Money for MUET text books, PIBG fee and school magazine fee.

Today also I entered one of my muet classes, teaching nothing. I was supposed to do listening activity but the radio decided to kill itself and I had no backup plan. I entered the class and explained to the students. they were more than happy to chat. I should have my contingency plan. I really should.

Bottom line - I am not prepared. I have my lesson plans but I find it too boring so I dont really follow it and I dont find the need to make the lesson interesting. What's happening to me? =(

I think I have too many things to handle. But so far this is the first time I'm letting it off here. I believe other teachers have bigger things to handle too. I need to learn how to manage my work more efficiently.

My desk is turning into a small hill. Books, files, papers are piling.

agagagagagagagagagaga.....!

New venture

There are major changes in the time table last week. Majorly because the arrival of a new group of teachers. For me, it's because of the shortage of teacher for MUET. The school receive an unexpected number of lower six students i.e. 247 in total with only 3 teachers. Ergo, the principal pulls another teacher to join the Form 6 force.

And because of that, the new force has to let go one of her Form 2 class and the class is given to me. I will no longer teach Civic Ed (yeayyy!) but I'm a bit worried too about where to start. And the class will start tomorrow.huuuu

As I told before, I had 60 students from Arts stream for MUET. Since we are splitting the students equally into 5 groups, each teacher will receive around 28 students. I am given Arts 2 and 3 students from Arts 1 to be in my class. There's one student from Arts 1 who came and told me she wants to be in my group. The problem with her is she doesnt want to even try to speak in English or participate in any activity. When I asked her something, she anwered in BM, not a single word in English. Even when she wanted to go to the loo, she would ask in BM =__='

Back to the story, I told her if she wants to be in my class, she would need to speak more in English. She kept quite. I feel bad thou but I believe it's good for her. The teacher that will take her class is not a Malay and I believe it would do her good. She will be forced to speak in English.

This is common according to my head panel. Malay students will feel comfortable if a Malay teacher teaches them English because they feel the teacher will back them up or be less strict with them. The weak ones will not show any effort to do English.

Just the other day, a senior teacher who's going to retire in August asked me this,

"Ain, why Malay students dont want to speak in English?'

"Aaaaa.....I'm not sure...various reasons la sir....'

'How you can speak English...how did you do?"

'...ermmm... I think its my parents. my father taught in brunei before where the syllabuses are in English and he always speak english at home bla bla bla'

'Oooo...I'm going to retire soon still cannot get my malay students to speak in english......'

'......'

It's frustrating.

Some of my malay students tot I was born with good english. =________________________=

Bring the boys out

Found this pic in my bro's album folder. Love!

Wisma Sanyan Sibu =)