Nightmare

B called. He didnt sound happy. Our nightmare has come true. B's proposal has been denied. The bossess said it is not the right time. They dont have enough man power.

I broke down and cried. In fact i'm still crying. All the tough faces i've put up since the struggle began now have melted and wash away by the tears. My whole body is shaking, trembling. Why is it so hard for us to live together?

Right now shut the world around me. I'm battling the defeat without B around. I know he's hurt too. And we cant be on each other's side to talk the pain away.

I dont know how to tell Mak and Abah this news coz they fought with us along the way.... i'm sorry...