Different paths

Assalamualaikum and morning everyone.

Today am feeling a lil bit gloomy and wanna pour what's been inside my head for too long.

When I was in Form 5, I was one of the higher achievers among my batch. and when SPM result was announced, I ranked at 4th or 5th among my batch. Most teachers I went to say thank you patted my shoulder, hugged me or the ustaz recited duas for my future. I felt important. Many people I know didnt do really well.

When I got into Matriculation College, I was proud of myself. Then I got offered into teaching course. I felt even prouder.

But

6 years down the road, am still sitting at home, unbath, messy hair typing in front of the laptop.\

Some of my friends have tasted a lil bit of their success. Some did well in business, accounting, admin and many other jobs. Some have bought houses, cars, 'wives'.hehe. Me? still here.

My point here is.....i dont know how to put them in words. Without many A'SSES in the certificate one can really succeed with will power.

Yes I'm jealous with my friends.even with B. 

I dont look for being rich. I just want  to feel like I'm worth of something, feel important like years ago. Now people just look at me with pity.dem!

heck. I'm babbling. 

mandi la wehhhhhhhh

ktengsbai

p/s this post is not intended to boast. 

Granted Buffered Earning again after a year.

Alhamdulillah...

Today as usual I logged into my Nuffnang account just to check on traffic. and to check on the earning. Usually I didnt bother to click the earning button, just enough to move the cursor and see the pop-up effect showing how less my money is.haha but today, I was surprised because in a day RM10 was added to the value. So I then clicked on the button to see the break down of the ads that are on my blog.

Surprise surprise!

I got buffered earning baby!! woot! woot!

I last got it last year, in my previous blog. when I created Nurulngerepak.blogspot.com, as expected I lost all my buffered campaigns. However, to my surprise I've been earning since May 2011 actually. Alhamdulillah. My part of rezeki has finally arrived. I couldnt stop smiling =)

The red box shows the last time I got buffered earning which is almost a year ago. and I was granted back on May this year. If I had known earlier...hee

Though I'm blogging for fun, i'm still excited to get some income from my writing. Who wouldnt? Dont have to fork out a single cent yo, dont have to brain my rusty brain for post. hehehehehe

and again Alhamdulillah. at least I have some side income for wedding right?

p/s anggap ini rezeki nak kahwin =p

Depress

I just hate it whenever I log into Facebook and have to read very depressing status.

that's why I only visit my fb like once a day. i now tweet instead.

if you really have nothing else to do, go cook, sew, dance, garden or any other physical activities that not only take your mind off being unemployed but beneficial too.

Kudos to some of my classmates who spend their time cooking, dancing, bibiking, part timing or sit quietly at home.

And kudos to Shafiq also who has never gone tired working on our posting thingy.

some people just sit around and whine and wait for other people to do something.

I can hide you but i've hid you from my wall too many times already and am tired had to undo the hide thingy.

ok now i'm done whining.

p/s just fyi, i have emailed KPM 2times and and called once and the answers were always depressing =,='

p/s in case you dont believe me, here I paste the reply I got from KPM. It didnt help at all anyway. hee this letter might be useful for GST la...


This is my letter to KPM. 

Salam,

Saya Siti Nurul Ain, pelajar jurusan TESL ambilan Julai 2005 bawah tajaan BPG. Saya ingin bertanya bilakah kami akan diberi penempatan kerana sehingga kini masih belum mendapat apa-apa maklumat mengenainya.

Kami sudah mengisi borang penempatan 2 tahun sebelum tamat pengajian. 

Harap mendapat maklum balas secepat mungkin dari pihak kementerian.

Terima Kasih.

Kementerian Pelajaran

AND this is the reply:

“SATU MALAYSIA: RAKYAT DIDAHULUKAN, PENCAPAIAN DIUTAMAKAN”

Tuan/Puan,

Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia ingin merujuk kepada pertanyaan Cik/Puan Siti Nurul Ain Binti Abdul Razak rujukan : 204056 bertarikh 11hb Julai 2011 berkaitan dengan Permohonan Guru Sandaran Siswazah Terlatih.

Untuk makluman,  bagi calon yang memiliki Ijazah Sarjana Muda Pendidikan dari Institusi Pengajian Tinggi Awam perlu memohon sebagai Guru Sandaran Terlatih (GST) melalui aplikasi atas talian (e-GST) di laman sesawang Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia melalui capaian http://www.moe.gov.my/.

Untuk pengetahuan puan, permohonan temuduga Guru Sandaran Siswazah Terlatih melalui aplikasi e-GST telah dibuka pada 20hb Disember 2010 dan telah ditutup pada 15hb Januari 2011 yang lalu. Namun begitu, tiada tarikh yang tetap bagi sesi permohonan seterusnya akan dibuka.

Oleh yang demikian, adalah disarankan kepada puan untuk membuat semakan di laman sesawang Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia dari semasa ke semasa bagi mendapatkan sebarang pemberitahuan dan maklumat terkini berkaitan dengan permohonan temuduga Guru Sandaran Terlatih melalui aplikasi e-GST tersebut.

Berikut adalah syarat-syarat asas bagi permohonan e-GST :-

    1.   Kewarganegaraan - Pemohon mestilah warganegara Malaysia.

    2.   Umur - Pemohon mestilah berumur tidak kurang dari 18 tahun semasa pada tarikh tutup iklan dan kurang daripada 50 tahun pada tarikh permohonan.

    3.   Kelayakan :-
              i. Memiliki Ijazah Sarjana Muda Pendidikan yang diiktiraf oleh kerajaan; atau
              ii. Memiliki Ijazah Sarjana Muda yang diiktiraf oleh kerajaan serta Diploma Pendidikan yang diiktiraf oleh kerajaan; dan
              iii. Mendapat kepujian Bahasa Melayu/Malaysia (termasuk lulus ujian Lisan) pada peringkat Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia atau kelulusan yang diiktiraf setaraf dengannya oleh kerajaan.

    4. Calon yang telah disahkan Senat Universiti telah tamat pengajian dan layak dianugerahkan Ijazah/Diploma berkenaan juga layak memohon.

Panggilan temuduga Guru Sandaran Siswazah Terlatih akan dikeluarkan dalam tempoh enam (6) bulan dari tarikh permohonan e-GST. Sekiranya tiada maklumbalas diterima dalam tempoh tersebut, permohonan tersebut dianggap gagal dan disarankan untuk membuat permohonan baru.

Selain itu, pengambilan Guru Sandaran Siswazah Terlatih adalah berdasarkan kepada kekosongan tempat, opsyen pengajaran dan juga keperluan perkhidmatan di sesebuah kawasan. Penempatan Guru Sandaran Siswazah Terlatih juga akan dikeluarkan dalam tempoh enam (6) bulan selepas tarikh temuduga dijalankan. Sekiranya tiada maklumbalas diterima dalam tempoh tersebut, permohonan tersebut dianggap gagal dan disarankan juga untuk membuat permohonan baru.

Walaubagaimanapun tiada tarikh yang ditetapkan bagi panggilan temuduga dan juga pemberian penempatan bagi Guru Sandaran Siswazah Terlatih. Oleh itu calon-calon disarankan untuk membuat semakan dari semasa ke semasa di laman sesawang Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia melalui capaian seperti di atas bagi mendapatkan sebarang pemberitahuan dan makluman terkini berkaitan dengan perkara tersebut.

Diharap maklumat/jawapan yang diberi dapat membantu Cik/Puan Siti Nurul Ain Binti Abdul Razak.

Sebarang maklumat lanjut, sila hubungi, Khidmat Pelanggan KPM (KPKPM)  di talian 03-77237070 dengan memaklumkan nombor rujukan puan seperti di atas.

Terima kasih kerana berurusan dengan KPKPM.

Sekian.

“SEDIA BANTU”

Yang benar,

NURSUHADA BINTI MUSTAFA
Eksekutif Khidmat Pelanggan
Bahagian Khidmat Pelanggan
Kementerian Pelajaran Malaysia

My Ramadhan Stories #3

I was at my mom's village at Sik, Kedah. Mom wanted to go to Sungai Petani to shop for raya. I badly wanted to go because I was bored staying in the house with no one to play with. Mom said 'no' because she said it would be tiring to tag along. and she said I would find excuses not to fast. =.='

When she left, I was soo angry. I was like fuming. But I didnt want to make a scene. So I just sat at the kitchen chair. My hand suddenly grabbed for 'kacip pinang' and buah pinang. I started to slice the pinang like my grandpa, 'Che' did. I made few slices. and put them in my mouth.

I made slices like these. hehe

I chewed like my grandma did. Slow motion. I ate almost half of the pinang. That's a lot considering that I wasnt a pinang fan. After that, I felt really thirsty. I wanted to drink some water. then only I remembered I was fasting!!! I cursed myself. I learned that if not purposely eat, my fast was still valid. I cursed because I was parched yet couldnt drink.

You see, I was really angry that I didnt realize I was eating. However, few minutes later I was secretly hoping that it was real food I was eating. Not pinang. I looked at the wall clock. It was around 1pm. A long way to go before dawn. T______T

I had to bear with parched throat that whole day.

My Ramadhan Stories #2

Every muslims in the world must have prayed that they can fulfil the 3rd pillar in Islam successfully. The third pillar is to fast during Ramadhan. Unfortunately, I only completed 30days of fasting once in my entire life. This is because first due to menstruating. The rest should be blamed to my younger self who always cheated during fasting.hahah

So this was back when we were still in Melaka. I've always find some place and time to steal food and eat in hiding. However, on this particular day, everybody seemed to be everywhere. So my chances to grab some food seemed zero. My chance came about half and hour before dawn. The food were nicely spread on the dining table. Since there was still time, my family members sat in the living room watching tv while waiting for the Adzan. I went to the kitchen. and saw freshly cut watermelon. It looked juicy, cool and the glaring red slices were seducing me. I was really thirsty. I couldnt handle it anymore... like on autopilot mode, I grabbed 2 slices and stuffed them in my mouth!

When you are fasting, you are more thirsty than hungry.

As I said earlier, it was almost time to break fast. I was fasting the whole day but I lost the battle with just slices of watermelon..... and as usual, nobody noticed. Ironically, at that time, I felt like I've won again for not fasting during fasting month. muahahahah

a reminder to self

after reading about the issue regarding our football player and his fiance, I have decided not to talk about private life, specifically my relationship too publicly. What happen to both of them is kinda sad but I believe they have their own reasons. But because their relationship was exposed too much, and every bit of their journey was made known to public, it make small issue becomes so big with the whole country can just go to her blog and read.

So I'm now scared that what ever things I put on blog about us will one day be used against me, that's why I wont talk much about it anymore. B is more than happy about this.

And because of this too I realized not everything in our lives we should tell in this borderless world. Pardon me for being too ignorant. and not all readers have good intention on you. God forbid, some might just hang around to use all your words to go against you when the right time comes. Nauzubillah.

To this football player and his fiance, good luck for both of you. one small step you can take is stop telling the world about your problem and try to settle it between both of you. Because too many extra hands 'helping' bring more wounds than to heal.

Good night.

My Ramadhan Stories #1

Assalamualaikum and hi everyone,

Today I feel like sharing funny stories that happened to me or I made it happened during fasting month when I was still innocent. I have soooo many to tell so I've decided to post one story each day so that I've something to blog about everyday.hehe

So let's start with this story.

I couldn't be any younger than 7 or older than 9 year old when this happened. You see, when I was young, i love reading. When there was a newspaper on the table, I would read ALL sections though I couldnt understand some of them. Anyway, I remembered reading a column where this person asked the Ustaz or ustazah about this question: What if I was eating something then suddenly Adzan Subuh was heard? Meaning time to start fasting la. The ustaz@ ustazah said you're allowed to swallow the last piece in your mouth, and dont continue eating. Sooo my innocent thinking thought something like this:

I planned to stuff one whole burger in my mouth, and keep it there and only swallow it in the afternoon.hahahahha Bole? 

To tell you, I was really serious with this idea that the next morning, I kept a I-couldnt-remember-what in my mouth before Imsak. Imsak was about 10 minutes before the actually Subuh prayer call. So you know la when you keep something in your mouth for too long, your mouth become watery and the food becomes like too bluweeekkk to swallow? In the end, I spat the food in the toilet. That's when I learned that my plan would never succeeded. and that's when I grew a bit of my maturity.hahahah

Selamat Sungkey Everyone!!!

p/s Pic was googled =)