met my souls~

On Wednesday, my former housemates and I met for the 1st time after practicum. it really made my day. the minutes they entered my car (i picked them from the hostels) we couldnt stop talking or laughing. the feeling was like when we were in Jasin.

Ikha, Iela, Kak Lun (Iela's room mate) and I headed to Alamanda. I wanted to belanja them since i got A for my Spanish subject.Alhamdulillah i got what i wanted and they deserved what i've promised.

At first we wanted to eat at Penang Village. But unfortunately, at the moment that place dont have a set promotion then we cancelled and decided to go to Pizza Hut instead. I never eat at Penang Village but the ala carte food is really really expensive. So these girls had pity on me and they switched the venue to Pizza hut.hehe thanks korang for being really understanding.

We ordered a set for 4 person and ate to our hearts content.we chatted, we teased, we laughed, we scolded each other.ahh...i miss those time. the only thing we didnt do was screaming. Back in our rented house in Jasin. we always screamed! even nak poop pon jerit satu rumah..hahah

enjoy the pics~ oh tapi semua pose gedik..hehe

Still on jiwang mode~

it's been days B left. but I still feel the emptiness in me. I have no mood. I don't talk that much. i feel bored easily. i have no progress on my academic writing and i ignore everybody except my room mate. this is bad. really bad.

i don't know until when this will continue. i hope not too long. B has started working part time as the pump attendant in Sibu. He works 8 hours a day. we seldom sending text or call anymore. I am okay with the fact that he's doing something right now but it leaves me alone and bored. that's why.

thank you blog for letting me conteng on you. this is just a confession of a bored girl.hehe

touching mode~

*jiwang mode..scroll down if you really want to puke or else, leave*

it's been a day ++ since B went back to Sibu. At first i didn't feel anything. at the airport, i sent him till my eyes couldn't see him anymore.*meaning sampai departure hall la*.. I didn't cry. i felt sad definitely but no tears. I drove back alone. Still no tears though both of us are not sure when we'll meet again. Someday indeed but do not know when.

And this morning when i woke up, i feel kinda blues..worst than Monday blues.it's sucks. i miss his presence. i miss his voice - not through phone though because it's a lil bit different if you listen to it live. why am i bothering to explain? haish..

at the airport, i was listening to B's MP3. i jokingly said i want to borrow it. Then he said " Just take it, i'll get a new one"..touching aku ok...He simply gave me his MP3 cause i know him well that he needs his MP3 all the time.

so this morning i was listening to the songs in the mp3. i dont know most of the songs but the lyrics stabbed through my heart. gtew kan...

"maafkan aku kerana tidak disampingmu bila kau rindukan aku"

huwaa.....and now see them? tears! dammit!

p/s hopefully this blues will end soon~

i survived the KL jungle !!

on Sunday, B and I had this impromptu journey around KL. It started with a planned plan which was to go to The Curve. We had no GPS and the internet server at the hostel was not available for me to use Google Map to search for the route.So, based on zero knowledge, i confidently drove my mum's car there. Nervous? of course! i always have this mental picture of KL being a jungle that's not easy to go through.

this picture was taken when i was busy talking about dont-know-what thus the not so sexy pouting look..hooh

so we started the journey from Bangi. It was around 10 am. the traffic was clear. the only way i know to go to Damansara is by going to Subang 1st. so i used that road though i saw many signs indicating ways to Damansara. Being a cheapskate i am, i dont want to pay for toll..miahaha..elaun baru je masuk kan..takkan nak habiskan semua just for toll and fuel. not cool =)

the traffic was clear =)

so back to my story, we safely arrived at The Curve. walked around the area, had a Subway (yummeh) then headed to IKEA. IKEA is on SALE right now hence the ants amount of people there. B and I surveyed the area and bought few stuffs to bring back. I bought a new wall clock (RM3.90), kitchen utensils for RM3 only and washcloth for RM1.65. B bought a stool box with 15 pieces of tools worth RM18.90 for his dad.

beli benda macam ni pon sampai IKEA ke?haha

pretty small stuffs..ye la takkan emos beli sofa pulak.. btw...guess who we met???
  this boy!

the handsome boy, Adam..but he was sick, not active hence the tired look..=(

*ignore the murderous-look makcik behind*

apparently my brother and sis-in-law planned to have lunch in IKEA that day so we met for a while. ok..i was damn nervous to bring B to meet my bro. but everybody seemed ok. Alhamdulillah...hehe this was the 1st time i brought B to meet my family.

then i asked Kak Maz where to get head scarf like she was wearing. B's mum wants the scarf like that so Kak Maz said to go and search at Sek 7 Shah Alam. Boy that was a mistake to go there. we literally searched the area high to low searching for Pak Ali Kopitiam. but nowhere to be seen. then as hungry as a shark i was, we went to Plaza Masalam to have lunch. there were many shops selling tudung. after lunch at pizza hut, we went to survey the tudungs. Unfortunately, although the price is bearable, the quality is not good.

we were both tired and frustrated. Then, i blurted out this:

Let's go to Jalan TAR!!

then off we went. The problem was i didnt know how to go back to KL from Damansara. we went into Penchala Link highway or something like that. we were worried but at the end of the road when we saw Nirvana Memorial Park..yehu..we're in PJ baby!

eh wait..no no..that was when we wanted to go back to Shah Alam from Damansara. i went out from the parking area in IKEA through the wrong exit masuk Penchala Link. sesat kejap..so after Shah Alam, i determined..cewah to park my car at KL Sentral and take the train to Jalan TAR. It was already 5pm and the  day had no pity on us as it was raining really really heavy. i even tot we might get trapped in the banjir if it continued raining.hehe

so we headed to KL Sentral by just following the signs. we arrived safely! yihuu.walaupun dah pusing ntah mana2..oh before that, while searching for the right way, i sesat almost everytime..salah masuk junction, salah ikut highway..memang challenging.

to cut story mory short, we manged to get the tudung his mum wanted. and also i found that Viscose cloth is much much much much cheaper than the one in well-known gedung kain. 2 for RM50. one for RM60 in Jakel..hehe

2 for RM50..too many patterns since it was getting late, i randomly picked any pattern for my mum and i..hehe

k la..that 's all kot. bukannya ada orang bace pong..

The survivors! =)

=)

i am so happy.

but i'll keep it to myself till the right time.hee

akhirnya~

watched the tv with mak just now and suddenly she blurted out these:

Mak: Nurul , ko nak bawak keta ni nak amik Saiful eh?

Nurul: terbebek!!!!

i didnt know how but i just have to tell her everything. Yes. Saiful is coming this weekend and i need the car to cut the cost of renting a car.haha My mum seems ok with it. i tot she will go against the idea of 'dating' since she made it clear that no dating. but after 5 years, she relented.hehehehe sayang mak. and her words buat aku touching ok.

'Mak percaya korang' - simple but meaningful.

i am super happy!!!

Alhamdulillah, for the 1st time in 6 years, both of our parents know that we are meeting each other. no more lies. no more dosa kering. no more jumpa curi2. no more the anxious feeling. hee


Semoga jodoh kami dipertemukan..aminn...cewahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!


p/s Saiful and I are going to meet after almost a year we did not see each other. He's coming from Sibu on Saturday morning. Yeah, for those who's wondering, he is a Sarawakian. Thank you..

statement of guilt~

i am starving. a lil bit stress searching for the right thesis topic. and feeling guilty.

a good mix adequate to make an emo Nurul tonight.

what ever i do, i always have this attitude to consider everything or everyone. meaning what will the response from the people around me if i do such and such. ALWAYS been like that.because i believe we dont live alone. we live together. but...because of this, many hearts will be broken.

example, if i make one decision, it might be agreed by A and B. But probably not C. then, C's heart will be broken by ME!.

or if i choose to satisfy C, A and B will hate me. then, WHAT ABOUT ME?

this is the truth that i hate to face everyday. really. why cant just once, JUST ONCE let me choose anything i want to do. not always. but give me some space. Everyone around me is significant. but can this one time the person that will be the most significant in my life is myself?

i am hitting around the bush. because i dont want to hurt anybody.i am torn between 2 parties. please. please. please.

currently i've hurt both parties. i think. i know. some have dropped hints. some have painfully lashing me with words. ok. i got u.

but this time i will protect my heart. be angry at me as you wish. because i cannot take it anymore..