Perfect Mom

I love my baby for eternity.

I know I am the best mom for him.

jyeahhhh!

Latest Spectra M1 Review

So...uhmmmm I am sad to announce that my spectra M1 is on its death bed. It's dying people after 5 months serving and being my bestfriend day and night. huhu

Before, I could get 5oz in 40mins, single pumping, now it takes that long to get 1oz. I had to use it with manual breastpump.

I think the reason is due to fatigue.hahahah It's been overworked for the last 5 months.

THIS PUMP IS NOT MADE FOR HEAVY DUTY, NOT HOSPITAL GRADE BREASTPUMP.

I bought this pump 2 months before Min arrived. Of course back then I didnt know Min wouldnt latch.haha so I have to pump 8 times per day. M1 is made for moms who pump 4-5 times per day, 30mins per session. I used up to one hour.huhu

Sorry pump. I've tortured you.

So, after it showed a lil sign of dying I bought another set of pump, Medela Freestyle.

I just gotta say Medela Fs is overrated. Not a satisfied user since day 1.hahaha

So not even 3 weeks, I let it go to a new owner.

So, which pump I'm using now?

Since I believe I'm a Spectra mom, I bought Spectra S1. Got it yesterday after waiting for almost 2 weeks of waiting (hence the emo posts since few days ago, because for almost 2 weeks, I pumped using manual. 8times per day, 40mins cramp wehhhh tangannnnnn....haha). Tested it and wow, gotta say the best among the 3 breastpumps that I've used.

Will do a review about Spectra S1 after let's say...1 month? Just to be fair.hehe

Anyhoo, thank you M1, you served me well in my journey of giving the best for Muhaimin. I highly appreciate it so now it's time for you to rest in the box in the closet. Happy resting!

Thank you M1 for helping me to fatten Minmin.hehehe

Shall Be Grateful then

This morning I woke up at 4am. After the usual pumping routine, it was time to fill the bottles with ebm enough till I get home. I was ok till I realized one of the storage bags was leaking and it contained 6oz of ebm. I had to throw it away.

I was angry at myself. 6oz of sweat and tears wasted just like that. 

And that's how I started my day, grumpy, whiny and angry.

It was a long day for me today. After school, I lepak-ed at the surau till 2pm then headed to Jusco for lunch and jalan-jalan. 4pm, I was already at the hockey stadium. I was on duty for BBSM with the students. The game ended at 6.35pm. So you guess what time I reached home?

7.25pm. 

I thought Min would have been sleeping..but he wasnt. I guess he waited for me to lull him to sleep.

So sweet this boy.

It took longer than usual to make him sleep. He wanted to be cuddled longer before I could put him in his cot. While he was falling asleep,I stared at him under dimmed light. I listened to him breathing. I saw his chest breathing in and out the oxygen. I felt his body thrusting towards mine.

That my dear readers, a feeling that cannot be described by words. All the stress, the loneliness, the anger were swept away just like that.

Then all the memory since he was born came back like a rolling advertisement.

Since born, Abdul Muhaimin is afterall a good baby. He is a happy and easy to entertain. He's not fussy even when he was sick. Only he cant tolerate hunger that well =)

I should be grateful. All the tests from God since I was pregnant with him, the absent of my husband most of the time, the mental and psychological torture of being in a long distance relationship, the loneliness, the pain of seeing other couple together,

Allah gives me the best baby ever. At least this one thing that not all parents can have is given to me.

Abdul Muhaimin, you are my strength. Fight with mommy ok =)

This Shall Be the final one

Stress membawa ke marah dan gelisah. Lemme mumble for what I hope would be the last time about Moms who are so lucky to be able to breastfeed their babies but look down on other moms who dont.

I have to admit, one of the reasons that drive me to keep pumping is I just cant take the comment from moms who are obsessed with their own breastmilk. Group-group yang sanggup menggunakan kata-kata jahat dan melabel ibu2 yang tak breastfeed baby. Because of their strong words, I determine. Bagus jugak kan.hehe

tapi like in the previous post, my stock has gone down and I have to go for a course next week. Still waiting for a miracle to happen or else, I have to introduce formula milk again, to Minmin after almost 4 months drinking mommy's milk only.

Tahap stress aku tu sampai hari ni aku call B pastu tanya soalan berikut:

B,apsal Allah uji saya berkali-kali when it comes to giving Min breastmilk? Muhaimin cannot latch and refuse direct feeding, pastu 1month susu tak banyak sebab tak direct feeding, pastu production jatuh sebab stress, sakit satu persatu, sekarang pam rosak, dah order baru tak sampai-sampai, boleh pulak kena food poisoning hari tu. Stock makin kurang, nak kena pergi course 3 hari pulak next week...Banyak betul dugaan. 

Kenapa dugaan yang aku kena ni tak kena kat ibu-ibu mulut puaka takbur susu banyak pastu perlekeh orang lain?

haaa kau...jangan terasa ye. Aku kalau stress ayat memang pedas.

Pastu B jawab:

Sebab diorang tak kena macam awak kena la diorang obsess. Diorang tak rasa apa yang awak rasa. Allah mudahkan perjalanan diorang nak bagi susu kat anak, awak tough sikit. Bagi diorang, tiada alasan taknak bagi susu ibu kat anak.

*perbualan originally in bahasa sarawak, telah dialih bahasa*

Nasib baik B jauh.kalau tak memang aku rasa nak nangis peluk je. Because he's so understanding. Salah satu tiang kekuatan aku.

Mungkin, mungkin ye aku kata mungkin apa B cakap tu betul. Diorang tak rasa apa sesetengah ibu-ibu macam aku ni rasa. Ibu normal mana yang tanak terbaik untuk anak sendiri? mana ? mana?

Rasa bersalah dalam hati when I'm not able to produce the amount to satisfy Min's tummy, Allah je yang tahu.Tapi aku doa hari-hari kalau aku terpaksa jugak bagi formula to Min, Allah lindungi Min dari segala benda jahat yang boleh jadi yang keluar dari mulut ibu puaka.

Diorang punya sampai hati cakap baby tak breastfeed senang sakit, bengap, lambat belajar, tak aktif, tak dengar cakap. sesetengahnya mungkin betul tapi not overall.Semua tu kerja Allah kan? Kita usaha. Susu ibu bukan sumber mutlak pembentukan peribadi dan sahsiah anak. Kalau mutlak, takyah lak didik anak, anta anak pergi sekolah, pergi university. sebab minum susu ibu je terus pandai, gitu?

Tu tak masuk lagi yang cakap aku tak cukup berusaha, kena usaha, pastu tampal hadis ibu kena susukan anak sampai 2 tahun. sunnah Rasulullah punya banyak tapi ko dok pungpang yang satu ni je. When it comes to effort, come and stay with me for a week then you'll know how 'tidak berusaha' aku dalam menjalankan hak untuk anak aku.

Sejak aku kahwin, pregnant, beranak now into exclusive pumping journey, aku dah terima macam-macam komen mulut orang. orang boleh kondem aku tapi aku sensitip tahap mahadewa bila orang komen anak aku.kadang-kadang aku rasa penat sebab hidup bertuankan komen orang. sampai satu tahap kalau orang komen apa aku buat aku balas balik. pastu orang tu kecik ati ngan aku pulak.acaner tu?

Again, I hope this shall be the last time aku mengutuk ibu-ibu puaka. Aku seorang ibu juga dan aku tanak anak aku membesar pastu baca blog aku yang sibuk dok kutuk orang.haha

But the chances are when my babies grow up this blog will be no more. We'll see.

ok dah kol 2.30 pagi. need to be up again at 4am to get ready to school. 

nanite peeps!

Aku Stress

Kepala tengah serabut ni.sebab minggu depan aku kena pergi course, kat JB for 3 days. Apsal stress? Sebab aku kena tinggal Minmin. Pastu sebab stock susu tak cukup. Aku stressssssss

Hari tu macam cantik dah stock. Tapi Allah nak uji minggu lepas aku kena minor food poisoning. Terus drop production. Production aku tak meriah. CUkup kais pagi makan pagi. Satu lagi Minmin punya selera besar. Bukan senang nak fulfill tapi aku gigih. Eh merapu. Kembali kepada food poisoning, walaupun aku tak muntah tak cirit bagai tapi production aku memang drop the next day. I have to produce at least 40oz per day to satisfy Min, tapi the day after the bad day production drop sampai 20oz je. Bila dah drop opkos aku kena pakai stock dalam fridge. I thought it's only for a day or two. Too bad, till today, the most I can produce in 30oz. Tak cukuppppppp aaaaaaaaaaa

Tadi aku keluarkan lagi stock untuk esok. The last four days ok je sebab aku kat rumah.sikit2 boleh lagi pump. Tapi esok dah start keja. Kalau rumah aku sebelah sekolah ke takpe.Ni sejam lebih drive. aaaaaa stock yang sepatutnya cukup untuk minggu depan dah jadi critical. Imagine red light flashing at the back.hahaha

Aku gelak lagi sebab nak cuba positif. Tapi aku risau. Aku berharap Allah di pihak aku. Sama ada course tu ditunda, venue tukar pegi Melaka ke atau tetiba production aku meriah.

Tolong la doakan aku.....

Ni la baby yang suka susu tu.hehehe kalau nampak botol mulut terus nganga macam anak burung =)

Letting Go My Medela Freestyle

SOLD!!!!!!!!!!!!! tq buyer =)))

Heyyyaa peeps!!

Just a quick update. Since my first breastpump went kaput last month, I bought Medela Freestyle as a replacement. After giving it a try for almost a month, I finally give up and let's just say, Medela Fs and me arent meant to be together. Tak serasi orang kateeee

So I'm letting this baby go for a cheaper price. I bought it from Babyhouz.com for RM1450 but I'm letting it go for RM1200 INCLUDING POSTAGE, Malaysia onleyhhhh

Medela Freestyle Hands Free Double Electric Breast Pump latest 2013 model made in Baar Switzerland

You will get a full set EXCEPT FOR COOLER BAG AND ICE BRICK. But worry not, I'm giving 3 pieces of Autumn Ice packs for freeeeeeeeeeee!

FEATURES:

• Medela Freestyle hands free double electric breast pump latest 2013 model made in Baar Switzerland
• 1 - New and Original Medela Freestyle Breast Pump made in Baar Switzerland 
• 1 - Black microfiber tote bag
• 1 - Rachargeable Lithium Ion Battery 
• 1 - AC Power Cord 12V
• 4 - 150 mL (5oz) BPA-free breastmilk bottles and lids 
• 1 - Double pumping kit
• 2 - Medium (24 mm) PersonalFit™ breastshields
• 2 - Large (27 mm) PersonalFit™ breastshields
• 2 - Freestyle breastshield connector bodies
• 1 - Set of tubing

• 2 - Membranes
  1 - Hands-free accessory kit with 2 pairs of bra clip (A & B)
• Medela Freestyle manual book & information guide book
• Free 3 Pin Plug 

Alright, if you are interested but still wanna negotiate the price, I'm open for it. But dont quote too low la hoh coz this is still new, not even a month old.tee hee hee

You can email me at flyawaycandle@yahoo.com

or SMS/WHATSAPP 0128770424

Serious Buyer pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee!! 

Now I wanna go hunt for a new pump. haish sakit tangan pakai manual jewwww

Panic!

Hi yalll

Just a quick post since Min is sleeping.

I am in a panic mode.

I will have to go for a course in JB in 8 days time for 3 days.

I was given an early notice. I thought I have the time to stock up milk for Minmin.

The process went well till 2 days ago when I was down with minor food poisoning-  again.. perut why you have to be so sensitive..... T__T

I calculated the amount. Roughly I need about 120oz just to be on the safe side.

I had around 80oz before but since production is low due to food poisoning, I'm down to 60 oz now.

I'm panicking because I'm worried I wont able to stock to at least 110oz.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Min is 3 weeks to 6 month old. But now I feel that Milk alone cannot satisfy his hunger anymore.

Should I start feeding him?

His birth weight was 3.7kg. Now he's 8kg. can sit with proper support. Imitate chewing motion. Keen looking at food. Should I? Should I?

btw, Min feeds 9-10 times per day, around 40-45oz. Mano omak eh tak kurus ngepam joooo

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Anything that comes contact with his mouth will go straight in. Cloths, toys, foot.....

Should I? Should I?