The Thinker

I'm mostly fine, Alhamdulillah. Compared to my pregnant colleague, I'm considered super healthy. She has been admitted to hospital for almost a week now. Poor her. Very bad morning sickness.

My body is adjusting. Apart from usual cramps, my hips and back constantly ache. I walk snail-slow lately. I can be seen panting even from a short distant to toilet. and most importantly, searching for something to wear is very frustrating now. I can no longer fit in my jeans. I depend so much on penny dresses. Luckily, my uniform to work is baju kurung. else.....

I went looking for maternity pants but...they look so auntie-ish and also am too small for them anyway. Frustrating! Luckily, I can still slip into slack pants. huhu

Last Monday, B and I went to Putra Specialist to scan my belly. The day before we had a long bumpy ride from Terengganu and my lower abdomen was aching. I was worried for the baby so off we went. Actually I wanted to go to NorShila but a colleague recommended this lady doctor from Putra. Since it's nearer to my school, we opted to go there.

The registration process went smoothly. After almost 2 hours, I finally got to see Dr. Ishaireen. I guess she is in her mid 30s, very friendly, very soft spoken. I fell in love with her. Anyhoo, we got to see our baby for the first time and got to listen to its heartbeats. Words cant describe my feeling. I looked at B and he had this glow on his face. It's overwhelming. Haish dunno how to describe. He must have felt the same way I did.hehe

We got the print of our scan. I'm lazy to take the picture but it looks like something like this.

 

The fetus looks like 'The Thinker'. hahaha am serious.hahahahaha

 

Terengganu II

 

Morning of the ceremony. My right eye was a bit small due to Ketumbit =__='. Was wearing Penny. But no whole body pic.

 

The reason we went to Terengganu.hehe Take good care in Australia sis-to-be. =))

Anyhoo, lemme brag for a while k. When we were at the ceremony, the other side thought I was my bro's younger sister. muahahahahahahahahahahahaha they said I look younger than Pidoh. muahahahahahahahahahahahahahah. Thank you. just that morning I complained to B that I look 'matured' due to chubbiness. ok dah.

We continued our jalan-jalan around Kuala Terengganu later that afternoon. 

 

 

Mak Buyong in the making. I got tired super fast now.

The noisiest kids at Masjid Kristal. They sang, danced, screamed like nobody's business. Haish Maklang dah rindu....

 

 

Cik Nin si Debab.hehe she's a cool baby. She enjoyed our evening walk. Didnt cry. She's the easiest baby to take care of. Nak jaga la!

I love family trip. Though later I suffered from back pain.hehe I love my family =)

Hello from Kuala Terengganu

After almost 8hours of journey,with dramas of getting lost,gps went haywired we arrived at Kuala Terengganu. My back and bladder were screaming the whole journey. I slowed down the convoy with the constant needs for toilet. Wuuuuu

We got lost around Bukit Besi area. Somehow Abah's gps was so determined and it made us drove into a narrow road till we got lost in the middle of oil palm plantation. Of course mom went crazy.hahaha anyhoo, we safely arrived at the homestay around 8pm.

Our homestay is beli beyutiful. Baru rasa homestay. Very homey. In fact this is the 1st homestay tt made me feel like home.hehe thank you to my bro's girlfriend's family.

Anyhoo my bro is getting engaged today!!!!

Ana Raffali - Jauh Ke Syurga - HD

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Listened to this song minutes ago. Ana wrote this song herself. and this song spoke to the deepest of my soul.

I love you B =) Every word in this song is my prayer for us everyday. InsyaAllah till Jannah.

p/s B is on a flight to KL from Bintulu. weeeeeeeeeeeeee

of SugarBun and Midin

The downside of growing up in Sarawak for me is I always miss the food that can only be found there. And since lately I have become super bitchy about food, it's harder for me. Like I told you in the previous post, I need to seduce myself to eat. Sometimes even Pizza cant do much. In this situation, I would do mental browsing about food that I've eaten in 25++ years of living just to see which one can arouse my taste buds.

You know what I really want right now?

SugarBun and Midin. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa =______________='


So what's SugarBun? What is Midin?

SugarBun is a fastfood restaurant that can only be found in Sarawak. The best dish must be their fish fillet set. *i'm salivating*. When I was studying in Kuching, SugarBun was a must every week. huhu I told B about this. His flight to KL would be in the evening soooooooooo He is gonna tapau one set for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!yum yum yum

 

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Literally salivating now. slurpppppp!

Next is Midin. Midin is a type of vegetable, best cooked with belacan. Just like kangkung goreng belacan. Midin is a twin sister of Paku Pakis.

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The taste is slightly different from paku pakis. haish i dunno how to describe laaaa but it's super awesome I could the whole plate on my own.

This is Midin Belacan. Ya Allah sedapnya......

For this, there's nothing we can do except I myself go to Sarawak which could be at the end of this year. B can bring it over here but i dont think if i cook it, the taste will be the same.

ok sebenarnya malas nak masak. hihi

Why in the first place I made this post? This is a torture....

One Direction - Little Things

Your hand fits in mine
Like it's made just for me
But bear this in mind
It was meant to be
And I'm joining up the dots
With the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me

[Liam]
I know you've never loved
The crinkles by your eyes when you smile
You've never loved
Your stomach or your thighs
The dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine

[Zayn + Liam]
But I'll love them endlessly

(Chorus)
I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if I do, it's you,
Oh it's you,
They add up to
I'm in love with you,
And all these little things

[Louis]
You can't go to bed,
Without a cup of tea,
And maybe that's the reason
That you talk, in your sleep
And all those conversations
Are the secrets that I keep
Though it makes no sense to me

[Harry]
I know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape
You never want to know how much you weigh
You still have to squeeze into your jeans
But,

[Harry + Niall]
You're perfect to me


I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if it's true,
It's you,
It's you,
They add up to
I'm in love with you,
And all these little things

[Niall]
You'll never love yourself
Half as much as I love you
You'll never treat yourself right, darlin'
But I want you to,
If I let you know, I'm here for you,
Maybe you'll love yourself,
Like I love you
Oh

[Harry]
And I've just let these little things
Slip, out of my mouth,
'Cause it's you, oh it's you,
It's you,
They add up to
And I'm in love with you,
And all these little things,

[All]
I won't let these little things
Slip, out of my mouth,
But if it's true,
It's you, it's you,
They add up to,
I'm in love with you,
And all your little things

B, this song might be too gay for you but I love it.hehe sing for me one day can?

I am annoying

I think I've been super annoying lately. To my students, my brothers and maybe B. Not sure for colleagues though. Why I said so? Lemme explain. (just let me ramble nonsense stuff okay. I need to.hahaha)

Students
My school is having major renovation at 2 blocks for Form 3 and Form 1 classes and is expected to complete by March. Right now, all the classes are floated. My 3 Beta specifically is temporarily located at an abandoned Math lab on the 3rd floor. I have trouble climbing up the stairs because by the time I enter the classes I would be out of breath. You know boys, they love to mess with your head. So when they made jokes or disturbed their friends while I was teaching, I got super annoyed. So I annoyed them back. By giving extra works or just membebel or let them out 10mins late after school ended.haha I dont think they know that I'm pregnant. Some already show sign of irritation towards me. Oh well~~~

My brothers
I have very bad appetite lately and have become super choosy. I would buy many junk food or food that I think my taste buds would like. and these food are usually the pricy one T___T. My brother thought I would never eat the food so he happily gulped down all of them which annoyed me. Apart from that, I would use pregnant-authority to get pretty much everything I want.haha lemme illustrate this. For example:

"Wei, dont eat pregnant lady's food. You dont know how we feel and by the time I want to eat they're all gone!"

"Move! This is pregnant lady's spot"  - referring to the best spot on the couch

"Can you get me a glass of water?Make sure use to my favourite mug. I have backache."

HAHA. My brother said I've abused the pregnant lady excuses. muehehehehe

Had secret recipe twice this week. dahlah tengah-tengah bulan T____________T

B is flying home in 5 days. Excited!

Hungry

 

A decent dinner for tonight. Plain porridge with lotsa ginger and a pinch of anchovies.hehe

Pakai mangkuk buruk je.hehehe

Today marked the 4th day I didnt eat any plain white rice with lauks. I just cant stand the look of the rice. I took heavy meals once a day which were in the evening. In the morning, my stomach became allergic to any food.haha

wayyyy before I got married, I always have this thought why pregnant women become sooo sensitive. Why cant they eat certain food, or smell certain thing. All those thing are plain normal. Until it's my time to experience it.I have no problem with smell. But certain food made me nauseous. I have to eat food that contain iron and my midwife advised to take a cup of spinach for every meal. Just the thought of  spinach in a cup make me... erghh.

Last Monday, I didnt eat anything for the whole day except crackers. I left school around 5pm, drove to Tesco. I literally walked around the mall, standing in front of restaurants for few minutes, just to make me salivating over something. True! I stood in front of KFC, i felt nothing. Then I went to Secret Recipe. Landed my expanding ass and scrutinized at the menu. I'm not exaggerating but I looked at each menu waiting for something to trigger my appetite. It was terrible people. I was sooo hungry but myself needed to be seduced to eat. 

That's how bad early pregnancy to me. Till today, I would drive home and being super active in searching for something to eat. I am hungry because I dont eat. But nothing seems appealing to my taste buds. Ngade tak??

They say this feeling will go away after the 3rd month. I really hope their words are true. Cant stand being hungry all the time =(

I just want to ngerepak

Thanks to my concerned Boss and the counselors, 3 Beta finally showed some changes today. I guess I cant manage every problem. I need back up. I need support. Thanks Boss for listening and putting the effort to help me, one young inexperienced teacher. tskk...

Because of today's event, I'm more determined to help the boys, to achieve at least 8 students who'll get A for English. hehe so far my class is a 100% pass for English.tee hee hee

Tomorrow marks my one year of teaching journey. I'm still young. Still learning. Still finding the perfect style of teaching.hehe I love my school. My crazy colleagues make everything bearable. I look forward everyday going to school because of them. We share the same problems, same pressure, same headaches, but we have each other to cheer us up. Thank you my circle of crazy colleagues.ehehe

Ape lagi eh?

Oh, I have graduated from week 8. I have started feeling nauseous. I cant look at plain rice. And most of the time, I want Coke to be my plain water. But dont worry, I havent given in to it yet. am pretending that I'm gulping Coke everytime I drink plain water.haha

I miss B. He's been such a sweet husband even from far. He never judged, never complained, never frowned when I was emotional. gosh am gonna cry soon. Hormones! pffttt! i know he wants to fly as fast as he can whenever I complained of backache, or cramps, or feeling nauseous. I know he feels useless everytime I cried over petty things. This morning when I was driving to school at 6.20am, I called him. Listened to 'Teman Pengganti' and became so emotional so I needed comfort. That song is super sad. tskkkk

Anyhoo, my bro is getting engaged next week so we are going to Terengganu yallllssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!! B will be around too.hehehehehe cant wait!

Future

It's true what they say about when you are expecting. You will start to think about the future. Slowly you will start to pave the route for the unforeseeable. I dont know about other mommy to be but I definitely do.

One of the things is about financial. Gosh I love to talk about finance right?haha I am a planner, in a way my mom is. Raise by a woman who believes to stand on your own feet, earning your own money, buy your own car and house, i definitely share the same notion. So, lately I've been thinking about when should I start saving for this lil tadpole of mine. It's not about being excited you see, just I need a good plan for its future. I heard over the radio that we can open SSPN saving as early as 20 weeks of pregnancy. Wow!

I think am gonna do that. I dont know how the future holds for lil tadpole. It might not be as lucky as me to get a scholarship to study. So I think I want to start saving for it. Can? My students are mostly Chinese and other English teachers are Chinese too. One thing I learn from them is they start saving for the children as early as possible. They send their children to different classes like drawings, music classes, dancing lesson, etc just to see how far the child will go. If the child shows no interest, they will stop sending him and find other things to explore. So I tell you based on my own experience, my Chinese students are more skilled, more open minded, more outspoken compared to my Malays. Their English language are not necessarily good but they have the confidence. I guess it's because they have been exposed to so many things since young. Soooooo in order to provide good environment for learning, money is of course the prominent thing.

Eh terpanjang pulak cerita sang kancil dan buaya.hahaha just my thoughts that I think I can share. We all want the best thing in life. Why not work for it?hee

It's just a lil dream of mine for lil tadpole and future tadpoles. I hope I'll have the strength, the patience, the money to provide the best for them =))

 

Ayfaaaaaaaa cute giler anak abang aku ni. Kena tengok hari2 so my tadpole will be this cute too.haha

p/s I hate frog but call my embryo 'tadpole'. Ironic much?hahaha 

Pay summons online/ Bayar Saman Online

End of last year I ranted about receiving a speed summon. I was lazy to go out so I decided to pay it online. Yes dear, you can pay your summons online!

Fezofalllll, go to RILEK. Hoho I love the acronym. Stands for Rangkaian Interaktif Laman Elektronik Kerajaan

Then scroll down till you see this. Choose one. As for me, I chose PDRM.

Click then this page will appear. For a first timer, you will have to register first. After log in, click 'check summons'.

 

You will later be brought to this page. Fill in your IC number and some security codes.

I entered my mom's IC number and there it was..... grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

 

 

Click 'Proceed with payment' and you will directed to another page. Choose 'Make Payment'. You can opt for credit card or Debit card.muehehe But there was an extra charge for me. RM2 convenience fee which I think equivalent to my fuel cost to Alor Gajah.haha and I got to do this in jammy.

 

  

DONE!!!!!!!!!!

 I feel so much relieved that night because I cleared my mom's name.hahaha

Happy trying!

Feed me well.

So I went to collect my passport today. At home, my bro was looking at my old and new passport and said:

"You look so much better here" - refer to the blue tudung (2007)

That's it. No more allowance from me!

 

  I've tried everything but the photo just wont rotate. oh well...

Purple tudung was taken last year. Blue, 2007.

B, You have fed me well.haha

Instinct

Let's talk about instinct. 

I dont always trust my instinct because sometimes they were just ridiculous. For example, when I went to a shopping mall, my hunch said I needed a new handbag because my current handbag was dying. So I did bought a new one. Ended up my former handbag had a long life. haha

Anyhoo, wayyyyyyyy before I confirmed that I have a person growing in me, my instinct told me it's in there. I got sick few times but I didnt take any pills. I had windy belly but never applied any losyen mustajab. I stopped taking junk food. Ok that was a lie. I MINIMIZE the intake.hahaha so few weeks after that, it was confirmed that I'm carrying a baby.

So it happened to when it comes to choosing my midwife. I was contemplating between government and private. and another weird thing was I really really really wanted to have B going with me. My pills were running low so yesterday I had to go alone and because my instinct told me something was wrong.

I did feel right. I'm anaemic. and the reading was dangerously low for a pregnant mommy. My midwife was shocked to see the reading and quickly referred me to Klinik Mesjid Tanah. Took another test and the result was around the same figure. So the doctor asked me about family history bla bla bla. She also asked about Thalasemia. My cousin from my mom's side has a son with thalasemia. He and the wife carry the genetic so their first son is having them. And because of that, the doc scheduled for a test to confirm I do not have that gene too.

I feel tired most of the time even before I was pregnant. So can you imagine how tired I am in this condition? Lethargic. Never knew Anemia is the culprit all along. Must be because of my Jawa skin, cant tell that I'm that pale.hahahahaha

 

Actually the nurse drew blood from both arms. I lost so much blood yesterday.hehe

 Anyhoo, if it had not been my instinct, something bad could happen. Alhamdulillah. Now I understand what they say motherly instinct.hehehe I went back and told mom about what happened. She experienced the same thing too. She said when she delivered one of us (she couldnt remember who haha) she needed blood transfusion. Another one, she needed blood transfusion before she delivered another baby. Seems like I have a high chance to be like her. So it's considered risky then.

Baby be strong, mommy for sure will be =)

p/s The visit will be 2 times in a month. Can I manage? Masjid Tanah and my working place is too far. tskkk!

Heavy

This morning I went to see Boss to discuss 3 matters. Let's skip the first two and jump straight to the 3rd one. It was about a problem I'm having with my students. I taught this class since last year and I guess they have become too comfortable with me that they ignore all my instructions. One of it was the whole class decided not to do the homework I gave. Actually it was for the school holiday. Last week I reminded them to do it so we could discuss this week. Boy they really had the nerve. out of 24, only 3 completed the task.

I was devastated. Hence the emo post yesterday. Can you imagine these kids, when they passed by me or met me anywhere around the school they would remind me, yes remind me that they havent done their homework? Indirectly, they were challenging me. I have one boy in this class that if he doesnt curse me with fuck or slut, he would ask me 'teacher, what will you do if I dont do my homework?' If you were me, what would you do?

So yesterday was my last straw. They are sitting for major examination and I dont want their bad attitude to affect their results. So I went to see Boss. Actually, I wanted to ask permission to punish the students by having them to give a talk in English during daily assembly. That's all. But thing got a lil bit too far. Boss decided to see these kids. I thought he would go to the class. But he made announcement instead, calling the whole class to his office. Of course I was shocked.

To cut story short, I was quite a hot stuff today. Teachers who are teaching the same class came and asked me what happened so I told them the real story. I thought they would scold me as you know, I'm the new broom....but I'm glad when they agreed with what I did because that class indeed has gone too much for some of the teachers.

I dont care if the students are weak. I want to teach. I love to see improvement. I love when my students could remember the new words they learn. But I cant take the attitude. Lazy and rude. I grow up with boys so I'm pretty familiar with their nature. But I'm an educator. My job is to educate. And it's not for academic purposes only but also for the whole being. I have a big responsibility.

Anyhoo, I entered the class later today. I told them I was the one who told Boss (They have been blaming other teachers). They were shocked because this time I really did what I warned them. For the first time today, 21 out of 24 students completed the homework. The other 3 still have the guts to challenge me. So I told them fine. You want real challenge? Next week, for daily assembly, each of you will have to share something in front of other student. If you were absent that day, I will call you a coward for the whole year. Wanna be a hero in the class? Might as well go all the way. That shut them up. Boys, play with their so called ego, you'll see the result. So next week let's see whether these boys show up or not. Cant wait to see them speaking in English in front of a large crowd!

Not my day

This is going to be a very emotional post. Better leave. I just need a place to rant.

Today is ssoooooo not my day. It started good but just likethe  Malay proverb, hujan di tengah hari.

My credibility as a teacher was challenged today.

I hate 3B, at the moment. I shall stop being nice. They dont deserve nice. dasar anak melayu tak sedar diri. Geramnyaaaaaaaaa. From now on, I will exercise my dictatorship. No more games. no more toilet trips. I'm serious. Dont like my style? Write an official letter to the school and change teacher. I dont care.

For today, read this:

memang aku sorang je yang dok jaoh dari husband

memang aku sorang je yang tengah ber'isi'

memang aku sorang je yang tengah emo

memang aku sorang je yang lapar

memang aku sorang je yang ada masalah kat dunia ni

ko kalau jumpa husband seminggu sekali jangan nak borak dengan aku. aku jumpa husband aku sebulan sekali, itupun kalau ada rezeki. kalau rezeki lebih 2 bulan sekali. aku memang nak tunggu husband aku balik baru nak bukak buku sebab aku nak dia ada sama. banyak benda aku buat sorang aku nak dia ada tengok anak kitorang. memang aku mengada. tapi kalau kau kenal aku, aku mengada dengan husband aku aje. dengan mak pun aku tak. dengan kau apatah lagi.

aku geram. aku sabar hari-hari tapi hari ni aku nak meletop jugak. dengan student yang macam hape and pastu orang yang nak sound2 aku sebab mengada-ngada. aku cakap sekali lagi, kalau ko jumpa husband ko seminggu sekali, jangan nak borak gebang dengan aku cakap aku ni mengada. memang aku sumpah, walaupun dalam hati je.

Ya Allah emonya hari ni. rasa nak patah keyboard laptop ni aku taip.

Most of the time memang aku okay. aku tak emo. banyak istighfar banyak selawat.sebab aku taknak anak aku jadi macam aku.panas baran. tapi hari ni macam dah marah sangat. takkan nak melepas kat orang. so aku lepas la kat sini.

Satu benda aku bersyukur, aku takde or belum ada morning sickness Kurang sikit satu simptom. Tapi tahap mengidam, lapar and sakit pinggang sangat tinggi. aku susah tidur malam-malam sebab kadang-kadang bisa je rasa pinggang sampai ke betis.semua tu tahan je la. takde husband nak urut pinggang, nak layan mengidam aku. kadang-kadang jadi emo giler bila sebab mengidam something carik tak jumpa. pastu tak tau nak suruh sape lagi carikkan. pastu rasa kecewa sangat2 pastu emo lagi. pastu tdo. bila tengok adam hawa mesti pastu nangis kaw-kaw. arghh

today I asked around for opinion whether to choose private or government clinic for maternal check up. kaw kaw je ko cakap aku mengada-ngada nak pergi private. banganngggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg sangat. kampeni husband aku cover wehhh. aku sedar gaji cikgu dg41 aku ni besar mana. tak mampu der nak pegi private. tapi ada orang bayarkan. pergi je la. plus, I WANT A FEMALE DOCTOR. FAHAM TAK??? Aku belum sanggup lagi nak mengangkang depan lelaki lain. walaupun atas sebab perubatan. kecuali kecemasan. pilihan masih ada, bukan tak ada. sakit biasa2 pun aku pergi klinik perempuan. dari kat miri, pastu belajar kat kuching, pastu dah kerja semua klinik perempuan aku pergi. 

Ok dah. Kalau keyboard laptop ni rosak esok, aku pasrah.aku tak tahan dah. While typing this, i'm having casual moment with mom watching tv. so takyah mejin aku distress dengan rambut gerbang-gerbang. I look totally fine only in blog.

I feel loved

Words travel so fast by the wind.

Today I bumped into few teachers on the way to class or the office. And these few teachers made me feel love.

They took my hand, or patted me on my shoulder, congratulating me. Hehe I have no idea how they heard the news. But thank you. I feel so much love.

Some of these teachers I barely spoke to. We exchanged smiles or nods but never anything intimate. The fact that they stopped me, wishing me all the best, giving me motherly advise on how to look after myself... I'm touched. Gosh, asking for transfer is gonna be so hard for me =(

Anyhoo, I notice that I cursed less and less this day. FYI, I dont generally curse except when I'm driving.hahahaha Melaka drivers are....... so sometimes the curse words just flew out my mouth. But lately, I kept quiet and killed the drivers in my mind or the most I blurted

"Apakah kepondanan ini???"

Yeah unrelated but at least not curse words.hahahahahaha

Pig out

Hello Blog!!! I miss you.hehe kiss kiss muah muah.

I want to blog but I have been lazy. Update for this week.

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 According to Merriam Webster, pig out means to gorge on the food, eat greedily.

I might have exaggerated but I do eat a lot these days. I feel hungry after 30-40 minutes after heavy meal which sometimes led to stress. I have not eaten this much since I started controlling my diet about a year ago. And when the body keeps demanding food, I sometimes ate with slight tears in my eyes. huuu... And if dont eat, I feel nauseous.

I googled about first trimester where mommy needs not to increase calory intake. So why do i feel hungry constantly? Stresssssssssssssssssss

I have a colleague in school. She's in the same week as me (we are so gonna be besan...hahaha) Her EDD is around mine too. Contrary to me, she cant see the sight of food. Made her vomit. She's having morning sickness even while teaching. Basically, anything she eats will come out minutes later.

I havent had my first puking moment, yet. I hope I will never have to.hehehe 

B is coming 3 weeks from now and we'll go for our first scanning. yippeeee

Baby, be strong, dont demand too much food ok. Dont make mommy fat =DDDDD

Roller coaster

Roller coaster. I love roller coaster. I fell in love with roller coaster when I first rode it when I was 12. I barely passed the height measurement. It was in Jerudong Park Brunei.

I hate emotional roller coaster. A minute I could be very optimistic, very confident that I was going to rule the world. Seconds later, I was sulking, sobbing, tearing. Gosh. Hormones. Pfftttt!

Something weird happened the other day. I was driving home from work when Red.FM played The One That Got Away by Katy Perry

 

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At first I was ok, humming the song together. However, when it got to the chorus part:

"In another life.....I would be your girl..."

suddenly I was sobbing like nobody's business.hahahahaha

I sobbed and sang the song, I sang loudly in the car while driving as if the lyric spoke to my soul.hahahaha In reality, the song isnt related to me in any way. Just a sad song.

 

I cried, sobbed with tears rolling down my cheek. The driver at the traffic light must have thought I just broke up with my boyfriend.hahahaha

Ok. It's funny when you think back. But not funny while you were experiencing it.

Hormones, you turn my life upside down.

Cravings

I'm in the phase where I constantly feel the need to eat. I'm always hungry. I just had full dinner 40 minutes ago and my tummy is giving me sign to eat. How la not to gain 2kg in a week?

School for 2013 started today. I had toasts for breakfast and by 7am I was hungry again. By 8.30 both hands were trembling -  a sign for hunger. I entered the class, babbled for 5 minutes then ran to the canteen. Tomorrow have to double-clarify what I've told the students. I dont think they understood.hahaha

And I am in the phase of craving too. I never knew the real meaning of craving till recently. For example, I craved for a very chocolatey chocolate cake. I thought about it day and night. I thought about it when I woke up, when I had breakfast, when I watched tv, before going to bed. Literally, almost all the time. I could imagine the savoury taste, the moist of the cake, the thick chocolate drip on the cake that I literally salivating just by the thought of it. Notice I used many 'literally' haha because that's how accurate I felt. However, when the cake appeared before my eyes, I only had one bite and couldnt continue anymore. Apparently, I just needed to taste a little bit to satisfy my craving.hehe

Kenny Rogers Chocolate Fudge. Secret Recipe's cake tastes better.

I had the same experience for pizza, durian, KFC. Right now, I'm craving for Asam Pedas Ikan Pari. I'm salivating now. Goshhhh....

Grumpy Lady and 2012

Everybody is listing about their events in 2012. Am not gonna run away from the cliche, so here I present all the important events in my life in 2012. *tepuk tepuk tepuk*

January 2012

 

My first posting, the starting of my teaching profession, the new journey of my life.

 February 2012

 

Ikha turned 2 =)))

March 2012

 

My cousin Diera got married

April 2012

 

Received my 1st salary and did serious shopping for wedding stuffs.

May 2012

 

Gambar kawen kena kasi beso sikit.haha Married the best man in the world =)))...

 

with them around..hehe

June 2012

 

Reception in Sibu.

 

Honeymoon-ing in KK where I got really sick and have never talked about trip.hahahahaha

July 2012

 

Abah sold his bad boy. tskk...

August 2012

 

  1st time raya-ing as a wife and celebrating in Sibu

September 2012

Honeymoon-ing at Genting Highland =D

October 2012

 

Honeymoon-ing at Port Dickson

November 2012

Spent time with the in laws cum honeymoon-ing at 3 different places. Kuching - Bintulu - Sibu 

 

 The birth of the 3rd apple of me eyes Ayfaaaaaaaaaaaa. ngap ngap ngap! Bunyi Maklang gigit pipi.hahahaha

 

December 2012

 

The return of Panda eyes. Ni tak panda sangat ye. dah surut.hehe

 

B's first time going to Mom's kampung. Sorry no other picture. We really need to start taking pictures =__='

and for the closing of 2012...

So how's your 2012? =))